After a while, I finally decided to start living again. After all I had lost some weight, I got my hair styled differently I was feeling pretty good about myself. In the little town where I live, each year they have a Native American Powwow. It takes place for a weekend and I am part Native American myself and am interested in the culture, so I attended. While I was there I met my ex-husbands cousin (who had recently been going through a similar situation himself) and we talked for a while. My ex saw us together and got jealous. Next thing I know he shows up on my doorstep, having left his wife and crying and pleading for me to take him back again. He sure piled it on thick. Telling me how much of a mistake he had made and that I was the only woman he really loved. This persisted for a few weeks until he finally wore me down and I gave in. He filed for divorce and was living with his mom (I wouldn't let him move back in with me, which is what he wanted) This went on for six months until the divorce was final. In the meantime, I gained back that 50 pounds I had lost. Yep, he was back at his lets go out tonight tricks.
In the meantime, he has started acting a little strange. Now mind you after all I have been through you don't trust so willingly. I got suspicious. I was right. Again he was sneaking around and seeing someone else. At least this time it was someone different. He even had the nerve to tell me that he loved us both and he didn't see why he couldn't have us both. Well.... out he goes again and this time for good! (and good riddance!)
Of course, being in the state of mind that I was, I started losing weight again. At this time I discovered Low Carb. This was something I could do. Right after I started low carbing, I found out that I had to have a total hysterectomy. My hormones were so out of whack the doctor said that losing weight might not be too easy for me. That was all I needed to hear on top of everything else... I had the surgery and during my 10 weeks off work and my recovery, I continued eating my low carb way. By the time it was all said and done, I had lost 75 pounds! I was a new woman when I returned to work.