Michele wrote: I look at my history with anyone who was unsupportive and realize that they were my scape goat...I could blame them and not myself...
well done.....well done.
I have to completely agree with this statement, as I have had many scape goats over the course of my time.
This seems to be the only time he is unsupportive with my decisions....I honestly can not think of another "for instance"
Last year I threw myself into a workout program and began a healthy eating plan. I successfully lost 30lbs. He actually became quite angry with me when I started to drop pounds. I was getting more attention than usual and it clearly made him uncomforatable. He would bring treats home...things that he KNEW I absolutly loved, and he would stock the cupboards with CRAP on his shop days. It got to a point where I would actually go through afterwards and dispose of the things I didnt want in the house. I'm sure you can imagine how well that went !!!! hahaha
I'm not sure what his fears or concerns are exactly, and the only thing I can get out of him is a
"you're just not the same when you are in train mode"
My mindset right now is, if he truly cared about me, he would be concerned about my health and well being.
Fuck, I would even just settle for a smile, a nod, and a "good work babe, keep it up".
I do not impose my changes on him as I know he is not even slightly interested. It's frustrating and I feel as if I am completely "alone" with my decisions.
WHY IS HE SO FUCKING SCARED
UGH, I wanna kick him in the shins.